Stake Conference

This week at stake conference we had the privilege of having Elder Quinton L. Cook of the twelve apostles presided over our stake. It was amazing. The focus was on celestial marriage and temple work.

HaYdEn GuRmAn

Ok, so Hayden is my husband. Haha, I still can't believe it! I want all of you to get to know him a little better so I'm gonna post little bits of information about him throughout the course of my blogging. This will be the first. The picture above is of Hayden and his biological father, Williams Beckam. He and Hayden's mom dated for a few years, had Hayden and eventually broke up. When Hayden was about two years old, his mom married a Venezuelan man names Eli Gurman. When Hayden was 8, he was legally adopted by him, hence his name is Hayden Gurman (dang it! Can you believe I could've almost been Lisa Beckam!!?? How hot is that??). Hayden and I had the opportunity to go visit his dad who lives in Fernadina Beach in Florida. We had so much fun and Hayden actually reminds me a lot of his dad! They have the same eyes too! :)

Life As We Know It...

(warning: the following entry contains information about my menstrual cycle. Sorry if anyone has a problem with that)

So, yesterday was probably the most traumatic day of my life. Since I moved to Utah, my menstrual cramps got really bad and I had to see a doctor about them and treat them and prevent endometriosis and stuff. When I was a freshmen at BYU I had cramps so bad that I ended up in the emergency room. I been able to keep them in control for the most part the past couple of years... until yesterday. I started my period the day before and things were fine. Things were even fine all day until about 3 o'clock in the afternoon. Hayden was at work and I had been home from school for about an hour. My cramps slowly set in and then turned into the most painful experience I have ever had in my entire life. I tried everything! I tried to take a bath, I stumbled around the apartment, I tried to lay in bed, but nothing helped! I even took medicine and nothing! The cramps lasted for about two hours and with every passing minute I felt myself getting weaker and weaker and dizzier and dizzier. I felt like I was going to throw up and pass out. I caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror as I plowed myself on my bed and I was ghastly white. My body felt like it was going to rip in half. I screamed and cried and begged and pleaded. Sometimes it was to no one and sometimes it was to Heavenly Father. The worst part was that I was completely alone. I honestly thought that I was going to die and that I was going to die alone. I finally called Hayden at work and he came home. By the time he got home at 5, I was passed out. He woke me up and although I was very weak and dizzy, my cramps had subsided. It was a very scary and traumatic experience for me.
A big part of the reason why is that it was so hard for me to know that Heavenly Father had the power to take it all away from me, but He didn't. It got me thinking about life and all the crazy and hard times that we go through. It can be so hard to go through painful times knowing that Heavenly Father can take it all away, but won't for some reason. This is when we need very strong faith. We have to know that no matter what happens to us, Heavenly Father is there and He loves us and knows what is best for us. There is always a reason why we go through trials, but a lot of times we can't see those reasons until later on in life. I don't really know the purpose of this post, I just has a really hard day and I know there are gonna be many more and even worse days, but I also know that Heavenly Father loves me and is in total control and I trust Him to do anything. He can see the whole picture, I can't. One of the big reasons I have so much faith in Heavenly Father, despite the bad things that happen, is because of my sweet husband Hayden. I honestly know that Heavenly Father brought us together and he is my life's greatest blessing. He is my best friend and my perfect helpmeet. Everyday that I wake up next to him I am reminded of the merciful and generous Heavenly Father above that is always blessing my life. So I guess, even though life can be so freakin hard sometimes, Heavenly Father really is there and in control and we will be okay. It will pass and we will be better for it, if we have faith and stay strong. :)

We Got A New Car!!!!

Hahaha ok, yeah right people! Hayden and I love our little Honda Fit and will be driving that thing for a lllooonnnnggg time! This Porsche you see belongs to our friend Shelli's daddy. We went up to West Jordan on Sunday for the blessings of their twin girls and afterwards hung out at Shelli's parents house. While we were there her dad let us take his car for a drive. It was a sweet ride! Hayden definitely enjoyed himself. :) The baby blessings were so so good and the spirit was incredibly strong! It was a very special experience for Hayden and I.

dAtE nIgHt!

Sorry I haven't posted anything for a while... our lives are pretty boring right now. We go to school, Hayden works (YES I am still looking for a job!) and we just chill. So after a long week, we went out on a date Saturday night. We went and saw the movie Seven Pounds with Will Smith. We had a lot of fun and it was a really good movie. Kinda sad though. It's one of those movies that you'll continue to think about long after it is over. We try to not stay up too late on Saturdays and party because we have church at 8 in the morning the next day!!